beauty through broken glass

..so I created a #tumblr & #Instagram account for Oscar. Pls...

Wed, 21 Nov 2012 22:29:46 -0500

..so I created a #tumblr & #Instagram account for Oscar. Pls follow them :} @oscarthewienerdog #Ihavecrazydogladytendencies #dachshund #doxie #ilovemydog #pictures #picturesonpicturesonpictures #wienerdog 😝🐶

"Saw the Love bloom from the start. It was a great story."

Wed, 08 Feb 2012 01:18:00 -0500

My uncle who introduced my parents to each other posted that quote on my mom’s fb page today.

I miss my dad but I can’t even begin to imagine exactly how much my mom misses him. They were just 20 years old..

31 years of marriage.
“…in sickness and in health..until death do us part”

redefining the words "Best Friends"

Sat, 31 Dec 2011 01:43:00 -0500

Emails, games, photos, chats, webcamming & phone calls every single day for four months straight..

Even though he was really busy with his band, touring, and work, he still made a point to contact me. He kept me sane and I’m beyond grateful for that. No one has ever been this patient with me. No one has done half of what he does and continues to do for me.

There are 7 billion people in this world and we were somehow fortunate enough to have found each other.

No matter how my world may fall apart, I know I can fall right into him. We are forever.

…ok, enough of that lame mushy girly shit. check out the chinks. ^

I’m finally in Hawaii and it feels amazing. We’re definitely making up for lost time.

I’m so happy I get to spend the holidays with his family, especially his mom. She’s awesome. Filipino moms love me. Duh

This is actually the first time since I’ve been here where I have enough time to get on tumblr. Poor guy is still in pain from his eye surgery.. pfft, if he wasn’t in so much pain I’d be waking him up ambush-attack-WWE-Armageddon style right now.

you know, the usual. :}

lawl.

Happy New Year everyone.

"You are to me as the sun is to the trees, Without you I am weak. You are to me as the stars are to the sky, With you I shine." -PR

Wed, 21 Dec 2011 06:49:00 -0500

Condolences

Sun, 18 Dec 2011 10:46:00 -0500

If I could define the past week in one word, it would be “condolences”.

I truly appreciate everyone’s sincerest apologies for what has happened. However, I believe there’s really nothing to be “sorry” about.

My father has passed away and he is free from all pain, suffering, and negativity.

He was 53 years old and cancer unfortunately had the upper hand.

During today’s mass held for my dad, the priest said this quote:

What you are I once was, what I am you will surely become.

I sat there for a very long time and thought about this phrase. hmm on second thought, I don’t think I’ll share my thoughts. I talk too much. I’ll just leave it up to you to make it your own..

Anyways, I’ll be leaving Bohol in a few days. I’m ready to breathe again.

This island will always be one of my homes. I know I will be leaving a piece of myself here with our memories.

UCCM (SCW) Ret. J.D.R
He was a master chief. He achieved something only 1% of all enlisted personnel rise to. He was the best of the best and he served our country for 30 years.

thanks, dad. You weren’t perfect but I am who I am because of you. You will forever live on through my past/present/future accomplishments, goals, and achievements.

i love you Daddy. <3

Sun, 11 Dec 2011 17:18:15 -0500

i love you Daddy.

Pearl Harbor was attacked on this very day 70 years ago. Please take a moment to remember how over 2,000 brave servicemen lost their lives, especially those who are forever entombed within the USS Arizona.

Wed, 07 Dec 2011 10:39:56 -0500

#Neverforget

Situations

Wed, 07 Dec 2011 04:02:00 -0500

Lately I’ve been thinking about how differently everyone responds to all types of situations. It’s completely understandable though. Some of us live a privileged life with no worries at all, whereas there are others who are going through god awful shit every second of their lives.

I think something that really sets people apart is how they DEAL with a situation which pushes them out of their comfort zone. Some people have been known to persevere under pressure, while others crumble alongside their problems.

Obviously Life’s not a party (well, at least mine isn’t). Real shit happens and either you accept it, pretend it is nonexistent, or sit and pout because your life is not perfect for once.

I know accepting it can be hard. I’m not saying that you must be strong all the time and ignore all of your emotions. You have a right to feel sad and upset. I’m only saying that the “shitty feeling” shouldn’t consume who you are.

Cry your eyes out, kick and scream, and then get up and deal with it. It has happened. It is done. Life goes on.

Dealing with my shit over here has been anything but positive, but I refuse to sink. A doctor even suggested anti-depressants because he knew I was going “through tough times”. Of course I refused. It’s not in my character to even consider going that route.

This experience is building a solid support inside of me. I will come out of this stronger than anyone could have ever imagined.

I will embrace everything…

“There are dreamers and there are realists in this world. You’d think the dreamers would find the dreamers and the realists would find the realists, but more often then not, the opposite is true. You see, the dreamers need the realists to keep them from soaring too close to the sun. And the realists? Well, without the dreamers they might not ever get off the ground.”

Thu, 01 Dec 2011 18:35:38 -0500

i miss them. <3 @ChristianCha0s and Mattcheww

Wed, 30 Nov 2011 23:53:00 -0500

i miss them. <3

@ChristianCha0s and Mattcheww

stealing-time: Modestep- To The Stars When these colors fade...

Fri, 25 Nov 2011 05:04:17 -0500

stealing-time:

Modestep- To The Stars

When these colors fade to gray,
You’re a million miles away.

They say that love is forever Your forever is all that I...

Wed, 16 Nov 2011 06:43:19 -0500

They say that love is forever
Your forever is all that I need
Please stay as long as you need
Can’t promise that things won’t be broken
But I swear that I will never leave
Please stay forever with me

..the lyrics to THIS song. <3 srsly.

Going to Hawaii for Christmas

Mon, 14 Nov 2011 06:22:00 -0500

chaotichristian:

with @jmremonida.

pineapples

tako poke

spam musubi

warm weather

beaches

IT’S OFFICIAL! Christmas/New Years in Hawaii with @ChristianCha0s!!

‎"11/11/11 is also veterans day. Before you start wishing for things you don't have in your life, be thankful for those men who lost their lives in exchange of ours."

Thu, 10 Nov 2011 23:55:21 -0500

chaotichristian: Happy Birthday, Jean!!! yep, THIS is my best...

Sat, 05 Nov 2011 07:56:00 -0400

chaotichristian:

Happy Birthday, Jean!!!

yep, THIS is my best friend Christian and G. =D

I cried and laughed during this entire video. He’s honestly the best friend a person could ever ask for. I would give him the world and more because I know he would do the same for me. I can’t wait to come back to California, live with him, and make so many more awesome memories together.

We’re forever.

I’m 22! BEST BIRTHDAY EVER.

rip off your Face.

Wed, 02 Nov 2011 09:02:00 -0400

Beauty.
Forgive me, I know I have talked about this before but something happened today that both crushed and made me stronger.

Although I love my mom to the moon and back, I will not lie and tell you that I had a great time growing up with her. She brought me down. She called me fat. She criticized my looks from as far back as I remember. It got SO bad to the point where I almost had an eating disorder or I wanted to disappear permanently.

Today, after nagging me about the “usual” and why it was important to impress strangers or her friends, I snapped. No, I fucking lost it.

I told her that it doesn’t matter what a person should look like on the outside. What if I was in an unfortunate accident and my face was burned off? All I would have left would be my brain and who I was as a person. Those two things alone should be THE ONLY things that should matter in life.

Your looks can easily disappear in an instant. As a matter of fact, you are slowly losing it right now. You’re aging.

The only way I could live a successful life is to depend on something that will be with me until the day that I die…my brain, my drive, my ambitions, and everything else in my heart that makes me a great person.

Sad to say she didn’t understand. She never does. I can’t change her, but I can change one thing that will make things better. MY daughter.

If I am lucky to ever become a mother, I will love my daughter for who she is within. I am fed up with all of these pressures and trends locked in our society. If I want it to stop it then I can let it begin with me.

“Dear man who will propose to me in the future - DO NOT hide my ring in my food or drink…I will eat it. You have been warned.”

Wed, 02 Nov 2011 08:42:43 -0400

Moon.

Mon, 31 Oct 2011 17:16:56 -0400

“Never ignore a person who loves you, cares for you, and misses you. Because one day, you might wake up from your sleep and realize that you lost the moon while counting the stars.”

something I came across a long time ago that just popped into my mind.

the Little things.

Tue, 25 Oct 2011 01:54:51 -0400

I had a rough night last night…
Extremely tired, I willingly collapsed at the foot of my dad’s bed hoping to get a few minutes of some shut-eye.

I thought he was fast asleep until I felt him rest his foot on my calf. I looked up, saw him smirk a little, and then go back to sleep.

It’s times like these that make it all worth it. My heart has been tested so many damn times but these rare little moments help keep me strong.

I love my dad.

his body is slowly failing..

Thu, 13 Oct 2011 21:47:43 -0400

i love my dad.

…never stop appreciating your parents. death as we know it may be inevitable, but you can at least cherish each and every moment you have with them.

ignore the small stuff. the nit-picking, arguments, disagreements.. all of that is only temporary. they are hard on you because they LOVE YOU.

Look at the bigger picture. All they want for you is the best, even if it takes tough love sometimes. appreciate their Love.its the only kind of love I know that will never leave you, fall apart, or break your heart.

It’s truly infinite.